Fortunately, we live in a time when you share your fight with mental health is more than fine – it is encouraged. I have participated in yoga classes, meditation circles, and even work meetings where stress, overwork, and mindfulness have been discussed and analyzed. My social media feed is peppered with influencers who share the daily ups and downs of depression. And earlier this year Iconery's dainty name tag chain with the word "Fear" – should be proudly worn to normalize a mental illness – Sold out within hours .
But Join in In the conversation about mental health, I said, "I'm gradually pulling the eyebrow hairs out until my eyebrows are bald?" That will still give you a look at the page.
Trichotillomania (aka, trich) is my personal struggle. One form of compulsive OCD defined by the uncontrollable urge to pull hair out of hair is sometimes referred to as "hair growth disorder" according to the Mayo Clinic . Those with trich may be forced to pull hair out of the body, but the most commonly affected areas are the scalp, eyelids, and brows. Consider it as the next higher nail biting or teeth grinding. an almost involuntary habit that is difficult to break, if not impossible.
Somewhere in my 15-year secret fight against hair, I tugged it. I've discovered the term Trich, I've found out that about 1 percent of the US population has the same condition, and I've learned that there is no cure (though various forms of talk therapy have shown that they help after the Mayo Clinic ).
I chose my way through high school, college, career change, dating and even my wedding. The more stress I felt at a certain time, the stronger my urge to pick was. And as a woman who regularly fluctuates under the pressure of unattainable social standards of beauty, the sense of shame and ugliness that has arisen from the bouncing of my disarray on my forehead – especially at the time of Cara Delevingne and Lily Collins-arched arches – was enough to trigger a new episode.
The cycle was vicious.
While I have always been able to obscure "problem areas" with one of the millions of end products available on the market; But the process of attaching, checking and repairing my drawn eyebrows throughout the day added only one more layer of obsessive obsessive-compulsive disorder to my obsessive compulsive disorder.
Then I stumbled upon the micro-popping, "a type of tattoo art that uses pigment under your skin and hair-like lines to imitate natural hair in your forehead," said Courtney Casgraux, CEO and founder of Los Angeles, GBY Beauty And then I found hope for a life that Trich did not waste.
"We have experience with clients who had trich, alopecia, and even chemotherapy," Casgraux told SELF. "The hair-like strokes look natural, and as long as your doctor gives you medical attention, we can build you beautiful brows that will last for years. "
Of course, you do not have to have any major health issues with forehead tattooing." It's a time saver, "says Casgraux "Women who are constantly on the move love this because they do not have to worry about anything else." Prices vary; in most areas, the a Microblading applications run between $ 500 and $ 650, but Casgraux claims it can reach $ 800 in places like New York City and San Francisco.
Personally, I have not decided to use the blade "lightly; I was afraid my microblading technician could make some false eyebrows that were uneven or oddly placed. what I really hate to be bald. But the potential to eradicate the fear of Trich I felt every day was too compelling to give up. In addition, microblading differs from tattooing in one important respect: the results are semi-permanent and last only one to three years.
When I was appointed, the beautician and I discussed my look (natural and reserved) and drew an outline over my eyebrows for approval. Then an anesthetic cream came to relieve the pain of the blade. And finally, there was the "carving" of short, hair-like strokes in the brow bone. Finally, pigment was applied to the surface; It took about 30 minutes to get into the skin. For the best results, I was advised not to wet the area the next week – by washing the face, sweating, or otherwise.
I am still with happy tears over the result. My new brows look incredibly natural and require no daily care. (Although Casgraux notes, "At GBY, we recommend that the customer comes once a year to make their brows look fresh.") But I'm referring to more than just physical results.
Microblading has an immeasurable impact on my mental health.
It freed me from the fear of being driven out by my conspicuous bald spots, and it has alleviated some of the all-encompassing fears I felt about my appearance. In the year since my session, my picking episodes are less and farther away.
Trich is not curable – and microblading is certainly not an official treatment – and I'm still struggling with the urge. However, thanks to microblading, it has mostly been replaced by a new obsession: every time I cross a reflective surface, I can not help but admire my full, false, beautiful eyebrows.